ذكرى

افتكر مره لما جوزى كان موجود كنا نايمين نتكلم وضهرنا لبعض و شدنا فى الكلام شويه المهم انا قولت كلمه ماكانش المفروض تتقال لقيته اتعدل و قام وقالى انت قولتى ايه فى اللحظه دى انا خفت جدا و بحركه غريزيه خبيت وشى بأيدى و انكمشت فى نفسى ومردتش قالى لما انتى بتخافى كده بتغلطى ليه و بعد كده صوته هدى و قالى ما تخافيش و دورنى له و خدنى فى حضنه
على قد ماكنت خايفه بقيت مرتبكه و قلت لنفسى هو بيعمل ايه ؟ هى ايه الحكايه؟
بس بعدها حسيت اد ايه هو بيحبنى و اد ايه انا بحبه يعنى بعد كل ده و بعد ما كان فى وضع قوة اختار يعمل ايه !
فى الوقت ده لو كان قالى ارمى نفسك فى البحر كنت هارمى نفسى
فى بعض الرجاله ممكن تعتبر ده ضعف لكن انا حسيت انه عمل كده لانه متاكد انه مش فى موقف ضعف و حسيت اد ايه هو واثق من نفسه
ده يخلنى بعد كده اخد بالى اكتر علشان مش كل مره تسلم الجره

introduction

hi
i have been married for 7 monthes now, my hasbend had left me to work in a forigen country since 3 months, i am bregnant in my 5th month iand i hate bieng bregnant i don't know why my be i think it is so soon ,it is not that i don't love my hasband i love him so much but i think it is so soon ,may be i think we need to enjoy our life frist.
when my hasbend was here and told me that he has to leave i didn't realise it i thoght so what he is leaving alot of my friends' hasbands left them and they are cool with it ,but in the day he left i felt so lonley and scaried that i am alone in the place , he left me before to get thomsing , but that was diffrent i started to cry i thought i will not going to cry when he leave but i knew now i was wrong , i remmbered how it was before he leave he used to take me in his arms to hug me all night i felt so protected and cared for but now it all gone i feel so much lonely inspite of he didn't left since too long ,i miss him so much already
i hope he come back soon , i know it is just a dream but it worth it